It’s that time of year again … the time where we all say we’re going to make all of these magnificent changes. Some of us actually follow through with those promises but the majority of us don’t. I’m definitely guilty of not always sticking to my New Years Resolutions. However, I’ve always believed that as long as the ambition and intent to change was legit, there is no shame in failure. Let’s hope that my 2014 New Years Resolutions actually all come true!
2013 was a big year for me: I graduated college, landed my first full-time job, ran my first half marathon, and so much more that I can’t even begin to get into. As eventful as this past year was, I realized that there are still a lot of areas in my life that I need to improve in and areas where I need to grow more. Not to sound too obama-esque here but 2014 will be filled with one thing: CHANGE.
2014 New Years Resolutions/Goals:
-Get my body fat % down to single digits again. I’m currently around 10.5% which isn’t too bad but I was around 9.5% in college.
-Move on. That means move on from all of the negativity, move on from all of my troubles, move on from trying to open doors that clearly don’t want to be opened. No more fighting for something that isn’t mutually desired.
-Be a better person. Be a better brother, be a better son, be a better friend, be a better man. Just be better.
-Enjoy life more. I spend way too much of my time thinking about what could have been, what could be, what might be. It’s time I stop thinking so much and just start enjoying the little things.
-Appreciate myself more. A lot of my personal demons stem from some pretty serious self-esteem issues. I’ve made a ton of progress in this department recently but it still could be better.
-Go to mass more! I am definitely someone driven by faith but don’t go to church as often as I should and that bothers me! Can’t strive for all of these blessings without giving thanks for what I’ve been given.
Pretty sure there’s stuff I’m forgetting to include but hey, I’ve still got a few more days. :P
So … to be continued.
"Don’t allow your wounds to transform you into someone you are not."
I’m okay now. Had a moment. Got over it. That’s all you can do, right? It’s alright to fall down, it’s not alright to stay down. Gotta get right back up.
One day, I’ll be happy.
I mean, I am content now. I should be more than content considering how blessed I have been and how many opportunities I have had in life.
But, I’m not really truly happy.
I don’t wake up with a smile on my face, I don’t greet everyone I meet with positivity, I don’t go to bed without worrying about my future every night … I’m just … A mess.
And you know, all the times I’ve really truly felt like I’ve been happy in life were when I was with someone. I guess that even though I may push people away at times, I actually crave the feeling of … Not being alone.
I just wish I found “her” already.
Problem is, I don’t like the drunk scene, my parents are too overprotective, I don’t have much free time due to my work hours, and I’m too much of a pussy to approach girls. I think I’m a nice guy, good-hearted, and always mean well. But there’s just too much working against me and …
I’m not happy.
Well … Good news is I got a job. Bad news is, it’s got ZERO to do with what I went to school for. I could either say “We all gotta starter somewhere” or “WTF”. I’m leaning towards the latter.
Oh well. I need money.
As for my career ambitions, they’ve changed quite a bit recently! I’ll be writing about that soon …